if you desire beauty

I got up
and fell down
Its a cycle.
I feel sick.

I want to drown.

I wondered if those things still got to her
since we never spoke anymore
she changed overall
but i hoped some things would always remain

like how she was so needy
but covered it up so neatly
i thought she would always be sweet
then found a knife in my back

What ever happened to Dharla?
who desired to travel
and would run for miles
just so she could find a place
to stay for a while

i still love her beyond grief
i miss her through defeat
and when shes cold
i still want to be her sheet.

i went to her to share
i always felt that she would always be there
because no one else could ever be her temple
she needed me the same way

I loved
she lied
she won,
I cried