if you desire rebirth

I met a fortune teller
I asked her my future
She told me I did not believe;
She couldn't help me,
if i couldn't help myself.

I wondered what she meant.

I met a boy
and fell madly in love
but when I told him,
he said "i can not help you,
if you cant help yourself."

I cried that night.

I went to church
and asked God
Is this a test?
He didn't answer.

That night,
I cut myself.
But in the morning,
I woke with the knowledge
of what each meant.

I went to the fortune teller and said
"I dont need to learn my fortune from you,
because its in my hands.

I went to the boy and said
"I love you" and he got down on one knee.

I went to God and said:
"I understand now,
and I believe in you wholly."