Death, religion, love, etc. are all hard concepts to grasp. You'll never know for sure the exact time you'll die. You'll never know for sure if the religion in which you believe, or don't believe is true. You'll never know if you're loved or if you love someone. In yet, we use each word so loosely; they hardly harbor any meaning anymore- assuming they ever did.
I don't know. Not knowing may be the most helpless feeling in the world, but sometimes its better not to know, or even think about it. I'll find out in the end, maybe.
"I love religion, I'll find out after death if what I'm putting my fate in is true."
I have no intentions in living that way. I'm sorry.