bloo

your unsuccessful attempt to rope me back in was just that, a tragic failure to make me feel something you had- loss.
somehow, i dont feel much these days. ive returned back to y old days of compromise with my sullen loneliness. i hardly ever cry. i sleep alone. im okay. so while you reach realizations and come to conclusions that we both messed up and you would rather have some of me than none at all, just don't try to drag me in. it wont work.
have you already forgotten? i tried to reconcile the pain. i apologized over and over again, but you were to blind to realize that was all i could do. there was nothing else i could give you. i was never any less than honest with you. i gave you what i could and all you gave in return at the end was bitterness over something i could not control- my heart.
even now, ive given you the chance i don't believe you deserved. but i guess you changed your mind- what you hold against me...