He was the first guy to ever really care and I felt it; that there was no ulterior motive. And I knew it; without him telling me, but the idea was extravagant and I needed to hear it, but when I pressed, he didn't give in. So, I pushed him away, without reason and it was foolish, but I came to my senses in my loneliness. I really didn't need him as much as I felt I did.