All these years, you've effected my life minutely. And you've screwed up to no end, but she still loves you, among many others. And regardless of what you're doing at this very moment, regardless of how stupid and reckless, or amazing and great, I'm proud of you and so are many other people, each being very different. I'm proud of you because you've lasted this long. I know its hard, but its alright, regardless of whether you believe me or not.
You're cynical, manipulative, self righteous, stubborn, and a smart ass. But, you're genuinely sweet, caring, and though it may be a little late, you're trying. And thats something to be very proud of. Its great to see you're learning from your mistakes and finally growing up.
Just so you know, you have someone waiting for you when you're ready to come back. I love you.